There's three weeks and a half left before school starts. I'm terrified of my senior year. I'm not ready to make life changing decisions. I have to finish my summer homework. I keep putting it off and making excuses of why I should do it tomorrow. This is so bad.

I have really weird eating patterns. =[ I don't think that's very good. Sometimes I don't eat at all, and other times I eat too much.

I'm bored and I could be doing homework, but I really don't want to.


This is my final vow. I'm stopping.

I wish I used this more often. There are times where I really need to tell someone something and I just don't.

I'm angry.

I'm angry that he has to deal with this. That he may be forgotten.

I'm angry that I rely on people, and friends too much. That i'm afraid of being alone.

I'm angry that it didn't happen, that it might never happen.

I'm angry I let you be a douchebag to me.

I'm angry I have a ridiculous amount of misquito bites.

I'm scared of the future.

I'm happy, about the number 9 right now.

It's stupid to blame anyone. You feel how you feel. You can't help it. So why does it hurt?


I guess it's just another one of those that you have to get over. Maybe I'll learn one day. I probably won't.

I hate feeling this way. It's stupid. There is so reason to. It's not a big deal. It really isn't. I wish I was more convincing.


My best friend is back in town. I think i'll try being happy again.

well i've actually had this account for quite awhile but i've never ever posted an entry in my thingy( don't know what to call it...journal?) i figure this is pretty cool i mean i can talk about anything and well no one can really do much except verbally abuse me which would suck but i guess i doubt it happening. that's it for now i should be doing my chemistry lab. maybe i'll talk a bit more later.