I can only be who I truly want to be.

So close, but so far?

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 18:06:41 GMT

There's three weeks and a half left before school starts. I'm terrified of my senior year. I'm not ready to make life changing decisions. I have to finish my summer homework. I keep putting it off and making excuses of why I should do it tomorrow. This is so bad.

I have really weird eating patterns. =[ I don't think that's very good. Sometimes I don't eat at all, and other times I eat too much.

I'm bored and I could be doing homework, but I really don't want to.

This is my final vow. I'm stopping.

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 02:37:25 GMT

I wish I used this more often. There are times where I really need to tell someone something and I just don't.

I'm angry.

I'm angry that he has to deal with this. That he may be forgotten.

I'm angry that I rely on people, and friends too much. That i'm afraid of being alone.

I'm angry that it didn't happen, that it might never happen.

I'm angry I let you be a douchebag to me.

I'm angry I have a ridiculous amount of misquito bites.

I'm scared of the future.

I'm happy, about the number 9 right now.

Light Years Away

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 22:11:15 GMT

It's stupid to blame anyone. You feel how you feel. You can't help it. So why does it hurt?

I guess it's just another one of those that you have to get over. Maybe I'll learn one day. I probably won't.

Chills

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 01:45:59 GMT

I hate feeling this way. It's stupid. There is so reason to. It's not a big deal. It really isn't. I wish I was more convincing.

My best friend is back in town. I think i'll try being happy again.

Thoughts and Things.

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 18:20:21 GMT

I don't like when people are quiet. It's not inviting. I'd prefer angry shouting to being quiet. You don't know whats happening, it's not as calming as people say.

I can't stop listening to "I'm yours" by Jason Mraz.. It's not like i just found it, but my ears keep craving it.

Ray Lamontagne was on SNL last night and I think I fell in love with him. His music is so incredible I can't even describe it.

So...

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 22:40:00 GMT

well i've actually had this account for quite awhile but i've never ever posted an entry in my thingy( don't know what to call it...journal?) i figure this is pretty cool i mean i can talk about anything and well no one can really do much except verbally abuse me which would suck but i guess i doubt it happening. that's it for now i should be doing my chemistry lab. maybe i'll talk a bit more later.